I Can't Believe I'm About to Say This...

I really can't believe I'm about to say this…I truly have a heart for women. I remember the night God told me you are going to minister to women and I laughed. Kind of like when Sarah laughed when God told her she would have a son in her old age.

Today it was on the calendar to have dinner with a new friend. As usual, I was nervous. I had only talked to her one time briefly in the church parking lot. She gave me her number, and I texted her my name and said we needed to have dinner. I didn't expect her to respond with dates so quickly. She was available for the upcoming week! We planned on meeting Monday, but with the arrival of my niece we rescheduled for today. It was perfect timing.

She arrived around 4:30 as we were finishing up our outdoor chores. She went with us to feed the chickens and collect eggs. Dinner was cooking in the crockpot so we had time to sit down at the table and visit. Before I knew it, it was 6:30! Time went by so fast as we shared our Rowdy Hearts with one another.

I called the kids inside to wash their hands for dinner. We all sat around the dinner table. We took turns sharing more stories with our special guest. She helped with the dishes and we talked and talked and talked some more.

I spent most of the evening sharing my past trials I have overcome, but for the first time tonight I shared a new struggle. God has put it on my heart to write a book. To share my story. I guess I have what you call writer's block. I struggle every time I go to write. Am I suppose to share my prayers, my blog, my story…Not to mention I feel like Moses. Unqualified to write a book. I don't use big fancy words. I really need to not compare myself to others. I know God made me uniquely in His image.

Last week, I crossed paths with an author. Her book is titled Half-Written. I began to read excerpts from her book and I immediately felt defeated. Her story so similar to mine, but so beautifully written. And her title, GENIUS! I'm suppose to speak to a publisher on October 20 about my book and I don't even have a title. Honestly, after writing today, I was ready to call it quits.

Tonight I'm thankful. I had prayed that I would be able to pour into this woman, yet she poured so much into me. Already blessed by this new friendship. She encouraged me not to give up. Not to believe the lies. She even helped me come up with a title for my book…Can you guess what it is?

P.s. Follow your heart. Don't compare yourself to others. Be the woman God called you to be.