Our drives home are rarely quiet or dull. I never know what to expect to come out of the mouth of my babes. It's usually something silly, but today it was serious. It had my mind racing with "what if", stirred up my biggest fear, and tugged at my heart strings. For me personally, my greatest fear is something happening to one of my kiddos. The thought of it makes my heart skip a beat.
The second week into school I met the school aid that helps in the office and cafeteria. I had a problem and with a smile she was there to lend me a helping hand. From my first impression, I could tell she is a woman with a servant's heart. Ready and willing to serve anyone with a need. Last week she lost her son in a fatal car accident. He had just completed his freshman year in college. A bright future ahead of him.
Since his death she has not returned to work. So on the way home Steven mentioned how she has yet to return and wanted to get her something. He had so many questions that left me speechless, "Why is she not returning to work?" Honestly, I didn't know what to say. All that came out of my mouth is "I'm sure she is devastated and just needs time to heal."
I remember that first week of driving past the old funeral home that sits on the main road of our one minute country town. Always empty. I wondered how they even stay open. Last week when I drove past the cars lined up in front of the building. I knew funeral arrangements were being made for a mother's child. My heart ached for this sweet servant, but had me thinking how much I, yes, I take life and time with my children for granted.
God has given me four children I call my blessings. When God gives you a child rather it be one or more, at that moment they take their first breath, they become your number one ministry. Life is short. They only have their first of everything once. It goes by fast and there is no replay if you miss it. I've missed a lot because I was consumed with work, my other ministries, social media, myself; and there is no rewind button. I poured so much into everything, but my kids.
That was then, and this now. God answers prayers and knows the desires of our hearts. He might not answer how we expected, but He answers. This new season I will be pouring in to my children every second, minute, hour, day God is giving them back to me. I plan on enjoying every moment as it comes!
Tick-Tock the Bible warns us, "whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away." James 4:14
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