Don't get me wrong…the retreat was AMAZING! God was very much present and moving, so now Satan is on the attack. He is attacking me big time. He doesn't want me to share my heart.
God put it on my heart to share my greatest struggle. Many would think that would be the betrayal that entered my marriage, but that wasn't it.
I identified myself with four women in the Bible. I was that woman at the well. Living bound in sin. Dry. I was Naomi. Carrying all my burdens myself. Struggling. I was Gomer. Spending my days chasing other loves. Empty. I was Martha. Too busy being busy. Dead.
In spring 2014, God spoke these words on my heart…Where Life Begins. The theme of my heart that would become the theme of the retreat. Life begins when we come out of the grave, let go of the chains, and dress up in dignity and strength.
I am not the same woman I was on June 6, 2013, when I prayed for God to help me. I asked for revival, meekness, faithfulness, and brokenness. He heard and answered this dead girl's prayer all in His perfect timing. He showed me His power. I look back and see His hand working miracle after miracle.
It started with betrayal in my marriage. He broke me. He put my focus back on Him.
He took away all my ministries, but two. He taught me to be meek. It's not about me, but all about Him.
Broken and meek I sought God with my whole heart, soul, and mind. I found Him. He taught me what it means to be FAITHFUL to Him. It's not about being faithful to my church, ministry, or obligations. I had it all wrong.
It's being that woman at the well living in sin, but choosing to be a woman clothed in dignity, FREE from her past, ready to walk a renewed life in Christ. ALIVE!
It's about being like Naomi. We are going to have pain, trials, struggles, and dark moments. I'm struggling today with finding my value, but we can surrender it all to HIM. He is our strength.
It's about being a Gomer. Returning to our first love after chasing all the wrong loves. His love is the only love that can make us whole.
It's about being a Martha. Being still. Not talking. Just listening. He is Life. He conquered the grave. He can restore us. Give us new life. Give us new purpose.
My greatest struggle was being spiritually dead for so long and NOT even realizing it. God has made this struggle my ministry. Rock of Refuge. Sparking a heart of revival in the hearts of women.
"In you, O Lord, do I take refuge; let me never be put to shame! In your righteousness deliver me and rescue me; incline you ear to me, and save me! Be to me the rock of refuge, to which I may continually come; you have given the command to save me, for you are my rock and my fortress." Psalm 71:1-3
Thank you to all the women that attended Rock of Refuge 2015. I cannot wait to meet with you again next year and hear all that God has done! I leave you with this…yada, yada, yada God.
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