I have lived in a bubble.
A bubble of comfort.
Same town.
Same friends.
Same job.
Same church.
Same ministry.
Same. Same. Same.
Until one day.
Pop! Pop! Pop!
I feel like the disciples.
I'm in the middle of a storm.
Trapped on a boat.
All I see are the roaring waves.
Jesus is saying, "Come!"
But here I am.
Kneeling. Praying. Waiting.
Scared to conquer the waves.
Waves of doubt.
Waves of insecurity.
Waves of uncertainty.
"But straightway Jesus spake unto them, saying, Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid."
Matthew 14:27
I lack confidence.
People who know me.
They'd say, "No way!"
But it's true.
I had confidence in my bubble.
Faith in my gifts.
Confident in my talents.
Certain in my tasks.
But, God popped that bubble.
I'm no longer in my bubble.
I have the same gifts.
I have the same talents.
I'm certain he wants me to use them.
Why am I so scared?
So doubtful?
So insecure?
So uncertain?
God has a purpose for me.
He has a specific plan just for me.
He wants to use me.
I have to believe.
"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind"
2 Timothy 1:7
God is opening new doors.
He's telling me not to be afraid.
To be strong and claim what He has for me.
I'm at awe of the doors He is opening.
New friends.
New job.
New church.
New ministry.
New. New. New.
"The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord."
Job 1:21
To my husband.
We experienced the ugliest.
Began to sink.
We reached for God's Hand.
He pulled us up.
I love you!
We will conquer this wave.
To my mom, best friend, and sisters.
Good. Bad. Ugly.
You're always there.
I love you!
To my friends and prayer warriors.
God said pray.
You didn't know why.
But, you prayed anyways.
Thank you!
Love you all!
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