Two people came to mind. They had both mentioned we needed to get together sometime. Getting out of my comfort zone, I invited one to meet me at the donut shop. She replied and was unavailable. Darn it! I debated on rather or not I should even text the second person being so last minute. I texted her anyways and waited for a response. It was still early, and I figured she was probably not up yet.
On the way to drop my daughter off at my parents, I could hear a small still voice...I will meet with you at the donut shop. At that moment, I was reminded I will never be alone. Of course! The Lord would love to have fellowship with me. After dropping off sister, I went back by the house and grabbed my Bible and journal. The truth is I had a very busy day ahead of me, and if I put off my Bible devotional until later this evening, when ALL the kids are home, I know it most likely wouldn't happen or it would be rushed.
This was so difficult for me. I easily let the Devil make me feel like the biggest loser. That people need my skills, not my friendship. I fear rejection. I just can't understand why anyone would want my company. Since I've moved, I really have analyzed my past friendships. I'm sad to say they are very few, and most of them came this past year. Does any of this make sense? I needed friendships, but didn't do anything due to fear…I am so thankful to those ladies that reached out to me. You have helped me grow in my confidence. Opened my eyes to the importance in investing in friendships. Even if it's just for a season.
On the way to drop my daughter off at my parents, I could hear a small still voice...I will meet with you at the donut shop. At that moment, I was reminded I will never be alone. Of course! The Lord would love to have fellowship with me. After dropping off sister, I went back by the house and grabbed my Bible and journal. The truth is I had a very busy day ahead of me, and if I put off my Bible devotional until later this evening, when ALL the kids are home, I know it most likely wouldn't happen or it would be rushed.
This was so difficult for me. I easily let the Devil make me feel like the biggest loser. That people need my skills, not my friendship. I fear rejection. I just can't understand why anyone would want my company. Since I've moved, I really have analyzed my past friendships. I'm sad to say they are very few, and most of them came this past year. Does any of this make sense? I needed friendships, but didn't do anything due to fear…I am so thankful to those ladies that reached out to me. You have helped me grow in my confidence. Opened my eyes to the importance in investing in friendships. Even if it's just for a season.
Although the Devil still taunts my insecurities, today I could see how much I have grown in my confidence in just a short time. When I dropped the boys off at school this morning, I had engaged great fellowship with several ladies…the 5th grade math teacher, the teachers that help with drop off, and a fellow mom. I'm learning that friendships takes two. I have to be vulnerable and throw my awkward soul out there. Lately, I've been doing that more.
When I got in the truck, I saw that I received a message. She wanted to get together! I kind of panicked. I was expecting…this is not a good time. I was nervous. Why? Just more fear. Fear that I'm just not good enough. I arrived at the donut shop and began my Bible study. God is so perfect in timing. He spoke to me through Genesis…and then I went and had sweet fellowship with my new friend. It didn't end there. I had even more fellowship with the ladies I was serving with at the funeral. God is simply…AMAZING!
"And God saw everything that He had made, and behold, it was very good."
Genesis 1:31
I am part of God's creation, and He is pleased with how He made me. God made me for a good reason. I am valuable!
Do you feel like you have no friends? I encourage you to throw yourself out there. Take a risk. Ask someone to have coffee or to go to lunch…don't sit around waiting for someone to invite you. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
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